A Heart”s Farewell

By: Tayseer Ameer Mohammed

Amidst the ruins of war-torn country , I write to you from Meroe in North Sudan,. At Al -Emam Al-Hady University, . I should have been happy to celebrate the completion of my Information Technology degree, but conflict has shattered my dreams. Now, I yearn for a normal life, to return to my father”s home in Khartoum.. I love my room. It’s a safe place
. I’m exhausted by these feelings of grief, void and solitude. Sometimes I feel isolated, even in a crowd. I sense hollowness, despite others’ attempts to lift my spirits as Raymond Williams put it to -make hope seem possible not despair convincing.
.I can almost feel fragmented – a portion of me is incomplete while another part of my self is broken inside..
There’s a monster-like voice that whispers” into my mind” You are worthless ” as if lusting after my misery. I’m entirely lost in the blackness. .
. Yet, I cling to hope, determined to spread love, kindness, and inspiration to others.”
Perhaps I still hold onto the hope that you’ll love me again. Forgetting everything we shared together is really difficult . I remember how we fought for one another, embraced each other fears and ,promising neither one would ever give up. I tell people that I’m fine , but the realty is that not a single day passes without trying to evade thoughts of you.. One day , you’ll seek me in every face, but I’ll be nowhere to be found.
Every time I hear your name, my heart aches me. reminding me of how it once felt like a home. Living, always brings any suffering in store but I’ve come to realize there’s also a ray of hope. We mustn’t lose sight of it. When we do , our lives begin to fall a part. . We think negatively, feeling lost and unsure of how to find relief..
Being lost in darkness, unable to find light , one would die of Loneliness and pain
The most hardest goodbyes come from those we never want to part with. Sometimes, someone comes into our lives, making us feel as though we were never gong to survive without him. .. Life’s challenges and uncertainties aside, our hearts yearn for that person.
The hardest goodbyes come from those we never want to part with. Occasionally, you come a cross the someones who you love deeply, the someones who make you feel missing them as missing your limbs. . Life presents lots of potential challenges, and though circumstances may change, you’re convinced deep down that you want to be with that person no matter what trials arise. Yet, some situations will never unfold as you wished. Some people come into your life to offer beautiful reminiscences, memorable feelings, and important lessons. Accepting that some of them aren’t meant to stay, no matter how hard you try, is incredibly tough. At some point, you’ll encounter people whom you can’t bear to lose, but you’ll find yourselves compelled by the fate to let them go, even without the desire to stop loving them. Some reunions are happy , however, all goodbyes are sad, but the most devastating and transformative farewell comes from some one you would pray to keep by your side forever. But , suddenoy, the tale of love is sealed by the red wax on which is inscribed ” An unexpected end”.!!.At last, you should smile because you “ll find someone who will appreciate yout love and beauty.